My name is Annabelle Moult. I was born on the 5th August 1982, and I live with my husband Danny in Buckinghamshire.
In 2007 on the 3rd September, I woke up in the morning with a very bad headache and blurred vision (I initially thought I had a very bad vino hangover!).
The day carried on and I started to get really painful pins and needles in my legs, so I kept having scalding hot baths as this seemed to ease the pain. Danny took me to see the out-of-hours doctors at the local hospital. I was told I might be anaemic and to go home and rest as I was going to see my own doctor in the morning.
I went home and to bed. In the middle of the night I got up to go to the bathroom and collapsed. I realised that my legs were not doing anything and I could not move or get up, so I shouted for Danny, saying something was wrong and we needed to get to the hospital. He had to pick me up off the floor and carry me to the car and into A&E.
At the hospital I was made to sit on a hard trolley for hours before someone saw me. By this time I was paralysed from my chest down and my vision was decreasing rapidly. The doctors could not work out what was wrong with me. Over the upcoming days and weeks I had MRI scans, lumbar punctures and plasma exchange. So much blood was taken every day all my veins collapsed. I was put on a very high dose of steroids for the first week to help bring down the swelling that was happening in the lesions in my brain.
Three days after being in hospital I woke up and the world was black. I was blind.
I was initially at Stoke Mandeville hospital but it was decided I be moved to The John Radcliffe in Oxford due to the high standard of their neurological care. I was in hospital for nearly six months. They were unsure of what was wrong with me and due to how quickly my illness came on they informed my family that it did not look hopeful and I would more than likely never get better or get out of there.
The John Radcliffe team were magnificent; I had doctors around me all day every day trying to work out what had happened and why.
Luckily I was allowed to have someone (Danny, my Mum or a family member) with me all day every day. This enabled me to keep some normality to my life, even if it was just someone getting me up and helping me to wash and dress. I initially dropped down to six stone and was so frail and unstable I could not even put my own hair up or brush my teeth. But when I was finally able to do these everyday tasks I had taken for granted previously, it was a real sense of achievement.
After approximately six weeks of blindness I started to see shapes in the black; my eye sight continued to improve seeing black on black, then grey shadows and misty, and pixelated vision.
It was a miracle my eye sight was coming back but then I started to get spasms in my left arm and this became paralysed for a couple of weeks. Now three limbs down and having experienced blindness, it was what one might say ‘an emotional roller coaster’.
After four or so months in the John Radcliffe they had seen improvements and felt it best to send me to Stoke Mandeville Spinal Ward so that I could be taught how to live my life in a wheelchair. Having been such an active person prior to falling ill, playing hockey, rugby, horse riding, going to the gym numerous times a week, it was going to be a hard transition but something that I have adapted my life to learn to live with.
I did Physio every day, wheelchair skills and general everyday activities to learn how to best live life in a wheelchair and being registered blind/severely visually impaired. I left hospital at the end of Feb 2008 at nearly 17 stone, owing to the steroids.
I have always tried to maintain a sense of humour and never ask ‘why me’. In my eyes why should it not be me?
Within days of leaving the hospital, I had got myself back to work: after such a long time of being institutionalised in the four walls of the hospital I needed to get my brain back in gear and focusing on other things.
My company have been great in supporting me throughout my illness. They have made the offices accessible for me to get around and I have a large screen with magnifying software to ensure I can see what I am doing and working on.
I left hospital at the end of February on a Friday and was back in work by the Monday! Mad you may think, but it kept me sane. I was back to work three days a week for the first six months, just to ease me in. I was also very tired all of the time, so I had to be careful that being at work did not take me back to square one by relapsing. By the September I was at work full time and have been ever since. Just because life has changed that does not mean it has to stop….
Friends and Family
I have found that it is vital to keep positive people around. Unfortunately when times get hard you find out who your friends and family really are. I have lost friends through this illness and also pushed people away, but it has made those that stuck around even closer. My friends and family have been amazing and I could not have got to where I am now without their help, love and support. They really all are, and have been, amazing.
It took two years before I was diagnosed with Devics/NMOSD, so for that time until my diagnosis I felt like an alien. I did not know what was wrong with me, I had no idea what to do or what to read to help me understand my illness and I could not find a person in a similar situation to talk to. It was a long battle and quite a lonely place to be, but once I was diagnosed it was easier to deal with and be able to have information to help understand what was going on inside of my body. I was able to start helping myself to get better.
I have tried so many different diets, I have tried Physio, I have tried alternative medicines and therapies, and some of them I feel have worked. Some I have had to walk away from!
But one day something will be found to ease the everyday nerve pain I am in, build back the myelin sheath that has broken down around my nerves to stop the connection between my brain, eyes and legs. The unfortunate thing is that NMOSD is such a rare illness that there is not the awareness or the money for research.
They say NMOSD is incurable, but I say ‘never say never’ – one day my illness will go and I will see and walk again.